JESUS IS LIFE

 One of the reasons I really like to post these blogs to my Facebook page is because in order to read it, an interest for its content must take place. I can see how many people click the link to read it. It's honestly not that many. But I keep posting anyway. I have never been to seminary. I am not a scholar. I am just a woman who loves Jesus and wants to share the continual work He is doing in my life. If it can help someone or lead someone to freedom in Christ, then it is worth putting out there. Most of what I post are personal things the Lord has showed me in my everyday fellowship with Him. I don't know if anyone agrees or disagrees with what I am saying, because it is rare that I get any feedback. I guess deep down my desire is to connect with other believers who are living by faith. I have such a hunger to be around people and talk to people who know Jesus and want to live the life He paid for us to have. Sometimes I get very discouraged because it seems as if no one really cares to know Jesus. Most of the people I talk to are just concerned with themselves. For instance, people are so concerned with what they look like on the outside but never let anyone close enough to see what is going on in their heart. People sit and justify themselves everyday, measuring themselves by what they do (good or bad). This is not the gospel. The gospel sets you free, from you. Jesus didn't give his life as a ransom for many so you could be a good person and make heaven someday. He also did not give his life as a ransom to highlight what a terrible sinner you are so that you can feel like a loser your whole earthly life (that is what the law does). The Son of Man did not come to be served, but to serve. Instead of receiving that first, and coming to know him, how quickly we rush out to serve so we can "be like Jesus". Have you let the Son of Man serve? That is what HE came to the earth to do. Ive noticed people live more in the identity of the Son of Man rather than the image of God. People are more concerned with serving than they are dying to sin and living in Resurrection life. I suppose because we can serve in our own natural strength. Faith isn't necessarily required to serve. But without faith it is impossible to die to sin and receive new life. I am not saying that we are not supposed to serve. Serving is the heart of God. But how can we serve that which we have not yet received?  I don't know what you were like before you came to know Jesus, but I know how selfish and deceived I was. Living in false humility, convincing myself that I was better off than the next person because my "sin" wasn't as bad as theirs. It took me quite some time to accept that the same God who forgives me also forgives them.  I could list over and over the many things that the Lord has set me free from. Even when I was struggling with alcohol, I knew that one day I would be free. I have been free and sober for almost 7 years. I remember how many times I cried out to the Lord after I had been unfaithful to my husband. I would always justify my actions based on the offenses I was carrying from his actions. I will not go into detail about the offenses that imprisoned me for years. Such a deceptive tool of the enemy. Our marriage was never what it looked like on the outside. He had his addictions and I had mine. After years of being sober, and sleeping on the couch, and finally creating my own room, it was made clear to me that we were both living two separate lives. The worldly lifestyle that we both used to connect over was no longer holding us together. Its hard in a marriage when one person gets set free and the other one stays deceived. Addiction always makes you think you can stop if you want to and then it convinces you that you just don't want to yet. It is true that darkness cannot fellowship with light. As I have yielded to the Lord and received the forgiveness He paid for me to have, there is still a little spark of hope that God will heal my marriage. But I also know that the Holy Spirit is a gentlemen and will not force himself without invitation. No matter what happens I know that God is faithful! Redemption isn't just for the victim. It is also for the one who committed the crime. The guilt I carried around for years was real. The suicidal thoughts and self harm that tormented me everyday was real. The lies of the enemy taunted me over and over. I have always wanted to do right by the Lord. I have had a relationship with Him ever since I can remember. But the more I tried to do right, the more I failed. It was like I was stuck in Romans 7 until the last few years, when the Holy Spirit started teaching me about life in the Spirt (Romans 8). Through it all I had this hope that someday I could be free from all of it. As I began to seek the Lord everyday back in 2019, the Lord showed me that I do not have to wait for heaven someday. He gave His life as a ransom for me, that I can experience the Kingdom of God on earth as it is in heaven. Don't get me wrong. I'm excited for heaven, it's my home. But the purpose of going somewhere isn't so that you can go home. Did you know that we are Gods dwelling place? He is with us always, until the end of the earth. The Kingdom of God has come near, He is in our midst. I know sometimes I come across as abrasive or whatever the word may be. But I have found the one to whom my soul belongs. His name is Jesus. True life doesn't exist apart from Him. I so desperately  want to have true fellowship with others who love Him. I am so thankful for the people the Lord has put in my life. I am so grateful to be forgiven. I am humbled to receive the mercy of God and be able to know truth and be set free by the Son of God, that I can now know the Father. Jesus is the light of my life. If Jesus is the Lord of your life please comment "JESUS IS LORD" on this post. Like I said, I am looking for a family of believers to fellowship with. If Jesus is not the Lord of your life and you want to know the power of the gospel of Jesus Christ lets connect! I pray that today you have an undeniable encounter with the Holy Spirit, I pray your heart is made ready to receive the abundance of grace through faith that will empower you to see yourself as God sees you and that you will live the life he paid for you to have, now on this earth. I pray that you will be free from condemnation and receive new life that only comes through Jesus Christ. I love you all.